worlds of wisdom

It's a hard thing to say, that you have made a wrong turn, its even harder to turn around. That was not just an explaination for why men dont ask for directions. It was also my own admitting I've made my fair share of wrong turns leading me up to where I am now. The hardest part of turning around is learning not to want what you know is forbidden. when your heart tells you no and your head tells you yes it takes somtimes more control than I have to determine which is which. going on a mission now will put my years behind everyone I know. I have been too caught up in this game of tug-o-war to go to school because I was always convincing myself that a mission was just around beyond the horizion, and I never did get to the top of this endless mountian. Hope I believe is what would have me keep my head up, hope is what tells me I haven't gone so far off that I could not turn back now, with a brisk wind of reality aiding in my eventual failure its hard to believe in such things. Most of my wisdom come from things I have heard not from things I have said or discovered. one of my favorites is such from a movie. "just because somthing isn't true doesn't mean you can believe it." " somtimes they're the things you need to believe in the most "